Lets talk about donuts for a quick minute please.🍩🍩 Hi, my name is Fallon 🙋♀️. I am #32weekspregnant tomorrow and my current craving is a donut. It has been for a few weeks (ok months) but have I treated myself to one yet? Nope.
People!!! Im currently carrying around a 3 lbs baby growing daily, God knows how much my placenta weighs and to top that my doctor sent me to a nutritionist because I'm retaining water at an uncomfortable rate which means swollen everything.
Lets be honest... it's not just water weight. Im not going to share exactly how much weight i've gained... we will just say more then the "recommended weight" on that stupid little chart they give you.
I mean at first I felt emberassed, then I felt shame and then I got a little mad. I mean I eat as healthy as I can given that most days I feel nauseous, I go from full to starving in .01 seconds and im just going to blame my melted cheese cravings on my hormones like everything else.
So anyways my point is... mommas I love you, I respect you and I admire you. Your pregnant body is beautiful, I truly do believe that but Truth: when I look in the mirror I dont see it the same. I often roll my eyes as I stare in the medicine cabinet mirror at my behind as I make my way into the shower. Just typing that makes me want to cry.
It makes me sad to recognize how mean I have been to myself during this beautiful time of growing a human. I have said hurtful things about my body that I would NEVER even think about another pregnant woman.
So am I going to have the donut?! Honestly, prob not, or at least not today. Although I am grateful for the craving because it has brought to my attention that I need to love this changing body even if the scale shows a scary number. I need to recognize the body pain, my thighs rubbing together and the pregnancy waddle are just part of this season.
Im far from perfect but today I am choosing to love my body with a grateful heart instead of continuing with a disgusted eye roll. I am aware of the sadness of this post and pray if you feel this way about your body, pregnant or not, that you join me in intentionally loving your body for where you are today.
Well windy_gap , you did it again. Once again, you gave me another month full of beautiful blessings. Second best month of my life. It’s crazy to think how I was able to be a part of 350 teenagers who were strong enough to step out from the boat and start a relationship with the Lord during this month. BEST. FEELING. EVER. Not just that, but it’s also crazy to think at how in such 30 days I would have the privilege to have deep talks at nights with friends, play signs + psychiatrist, have dinner up in the hill, having to do rep prep every morning, getting to sing to the lord late at night, sharing our testimonies, getting to eat donuts after western night, getting to set up for big table, getting to have personal talks behind stage during club, blitzing and best part of all, getting to pray for each other. Crazy to think at how in such 30 days I was able to call those friends FAMILY. It’s amazing at what the lord can do for every single one of us. WOW, just WOW. I’m glad I was able to strengthen my relationship with the lord by getting to pray about it and helping out high schoolers break down walls of fear and build new ones with joy. God, you have been so so good to me during this month. Not only did you make me go through some struggles, but you did that in order for me to get stronger and grow more from that as well. Thank you for letting me grow with more knowledge and more of your word god, your simply AMAZING. Huge thank you to all of my family as well, every single one of you guys are beautiful. Please, never change. You are all perfect just the way you are and God has a very special plan for every single one of us, we just gotta keep walking with him and have faith on it! 🙏🏼❤️. And well, that’s a wrap! Summer Staff Session 2, 2019 is in the books now. Can’t wait for what you have in store for me God, I’m extremely excited, pumped and fired up for that!!! Wishing every single one of my family members nothing but success as they continue there path with the Lord and continuing changing life’s around the world. I’m proud enough to say that I have friends all around the U.S! 🤙🏼❤️ Dale! Philippians 4:13 🤞🏼🙌🏼♥️ (Sorry if I didn’t tag you, it’s ig’s fault)